My desires on two blonde naked foreplaying in a house

Ever since I was small, I watch people hugging, kissing, entering relationships depicted on movies. And I didn’t know about mind or systems or energy like that. At first it was a curiosity like: oh it looks interesting, what would it “feel“ like if I engage with a girl and experience a relationship/Love like that? Would it be fun? At that time was more curious about what it felt like hugging or kissing.

When I grow up to teenager, there was this immense desire/energy merging with mind/systems that I found I was drifting more and more away from my innocence and I was more and more reacting to a girl’s body and shape of face (as feelings/energy inside me) and I began to lost into it and pursuing for more and more of this type of feelings. I mean, not to mention that the movies depicted tons of scenery(kissing, hugging), morning/evening/night, banquet, dancing, romantic background music to make it looks such a wonderful medicine for loneness. And when I grow older, I was afraid of loneness and find being with others are more fun.

When I got older in my 20-30s. Partly because of masturbation and I felt I want to experience sex and with a teenage girl and think that would make my experience of my life more enrich and fulfilled. I interpreted love as a feeling, a highness with a girl instead of seeing love in a practical action of treating everything as me equally. I think love is a warm feeling, a happiness, a mutual caring(however it was only a switching every moment’s attention onto a teenage girl only without caring what is happening around my world), a keep on feeding me with this feeling/energy as long as I can see you or hold you in my arms desire.

So when I look at myself, I also want to experience kissing hugging, Participate in the Mind and react to teenage girls’ body, Do not want to be alone, want to with others, Kissing and hugging will make me a higher/fulfilled experience and Desire for sex, warm feelings. And I found the Desire for sex, warm feelings is the most imminent and I will be working on this.


I want to feel Cozy/Content feeling, excitable. And I can summarize in one word - sex. That I project myself watching Two blonde naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter.

So when I see Caucasians couple kissing/hugging in movie, seeing young teenage girls’ thighs I'd feel excited and stimulated by energy inside of me. So I forgive myself on details for having the thought of desire to experiencing hugging.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanting to experience kissing and hugging as a higher experience instead of realizing it is actually I am hugging and kissing with myself.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am not complete until I can have a beautiful teenage girl and hug and kiss her instead of realizing it was just a feeling and energy and only exists in the mind and everything is me.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to hug and kiss based on what is best for all.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself want to have a perfect relationship with a prefect young teenage girl instead of pursuing oneness and equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself only pursue for energies through want to have sex with Caucasian teenager, instead of staying here in breathe and see what I can do for best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put my desire for sex and an Caucasian teenage girl’s body, my self-interest, instead of what is best for all.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to draw my attention only to hugging and kissing of a Caucasian teenage girl.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dream of my life experience will be better and more fulfilled by kissing or hugging a Caucasian teenage girl instead of realizing I am simply here and enjoying myself not defined by high or low energies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my happiness in high energies feelings instead of the enjoying my breathe as Oneness and Equality.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for warm feelings instead of realizing it is actually a desire for energy and highness.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see everything as me and the only relationship exists is self.

  Now I also forgive myself on the what triggers me to have that thought.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desires to kiss and hug a Caucasian girl/actress in a movie.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly want to have sex with the actress in the movies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself want to experience the same kissing and hugging as I see in the movies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think the actress is smiling at me and I tune in to that type of love feelings in reality instead of staying here in my breathe.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define kissing and hugging as the ultimate experience of love instead of experiencing oneness and equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect seeing Caucasians couple kissing/hugging in movie to love.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define love within Caucasians couples kissing/hugging in movies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from love and from image of Caucasians couples kissing/hugging through defining love within the image of Caucasians couples kissing/hugging in movies.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect love and sex to the image of  young teenage girls’ thighs.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define love and sex within the image of young teenage girls’ thighs.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the love and sex and from the image of young teenage girls’ thighs through separating myself from love and sex and from the image of young teenage girls’ thighs.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to the image of an a Caucasian teenage girl’s thigh as feelings instead of do not participate in the mind and stay in breathe in here with my physical body.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the image of a Caucasian teenager’s thigh to ecstasy and sex.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize I don’t need excitement but only life to enjoy.

These are my detail self-forgiveness on my desire for sex and fear of being alone facing myself.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire for sex and feelings instead of staying in breathe here and enjoying life.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to get excited and do not want to be alone and face myself so that I can change myself.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect desire of sex and energy to love.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect fear to being alone.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by fear and energy instead of self-directing myself.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to realize I can never run away from myself and stay in the current instead of facing myself and change myself fit within Equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in separation and thinking I can manipulate and enslave others service for me but it actually it is I am enslaving myself.

  Obviously after the self-forgiveness, I need to Remind myself of how to correct myself else that wouldn't be real and effective self-forgivenenss. And according to my desire to be hugged, I realize Energy and Sex is not the solution or ultimate experience. The real joy is in Oneness and Equality, the joy is enjoy as Life always doing what is best for all so I don’t need to worry about karma, we are all alone, it’s just the mind make up relationships to pretend we are not alone but it actually was separation.

  So When I face the similar situation for the desire again, I remind myself true Love is Equality, not feelings/energy.

For desire for sex I also realize Young couples depicted on the movies are just two mind sets needing each other, I Don’t submit myself to the power of an image of a Caucasian’s teen ager’s thigh, I’d rather submit myself to innocent to Life, I don’t subdue myself to the power of energy.

So when I want to submit myself to these energy feelings I stop and stay in breathe, remind myself don’t submit to image or energy, submit myself to innocent and Life always for what is best for all.

So for my desire for Cozy/Content feeling, High energy, down to the core I am actually because of fear of facing myself. Because I desire for energy and want a mate.

So I forgive myself on the my desire for cozy/content feelings. 

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as cozy feelings instead of enjoying equality in breath.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the cozy feeling as hugging a teenage girl’s body.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect love to the feeling of cozy feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define love within cozy feeling.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate from the word love from cozy feelings through defining love within cozy feelings.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect love to the energy/feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define love within high energy.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from love and from high energy through defining love within high energy.

And I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself on the core reason of why I am hanging on that thought.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect desires for positive energy feelings to cozy feelings and high energy.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself and directed by the desire for positive energy feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define desire for positive energy feelings and do not want to face myself within cozy feeling and high energy.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from cozy feelings, high energy and desire for desire for positive energy feelings and do not want to face myself within positive energy feelings and do not want o face myself through defining cozy feelings and high energy.

• I forgive myself to be subjected to desires for positive energy feelings and do not want to face myself instead of standing up and support equality as Equality is the real joy.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I will be empty and dying without energy, sex or feelings instead of realizing and staying in breathe as innocent as expression of life.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing myself and see the points that I need to self-forgive.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect fear to facing myself instead of realizing I am everywhere.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lost and pretend in relationships believing in separation instead of realizing we are all alone.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide away in energy/feelings believing I am living and temporary forgetting that we are all from the same source, instead of living self-honesty for best for all.

[Fear of facing myself]

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanting to fulfill myself complete by having the one instead of realizing that everyone and everything is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the mind and thinking I cannot live without a separate relationship.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear of silence and self instead of realizing I am all alone and it’s only the mind pretending relationships/separation exist.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect fear to silence and self instead of realizing everything is in fact me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I need energy in every moment instead of realizing what I need is best for all and Life.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to always remember and realize that we are all alone and everyone/everything is just me.

 When I see myself beginning to desire for cozy/content feelings, I realize I am not energy or high/positive feelings. I am innocent an expression of life, Energy and feelings are not real and won’t last, Life and physical is real and will last. And here is my plan/blueprint: When I go into want to desire for positive energy or not to face myself alone, I stop and breathe and remind myself energy is not real and it will not last and it cause harms to physical.

  For fearing of facing myself, I realize I cannot run away from alone, loneliness only exists in mind systems. We are all alone all along. So when I realize I begin to fear facing myself and want to divert my attention somewhere, I flag the point remind myself why run away from self for comfortable only for awhile. I change myself once and for all so I become a better me fit within Oneness and Equality and don’t need to be ashamed or hide from self.

  As for why I am hanging on to this thought, I realize Want energy and want mate is just from the mind. Everything is me, I warned myself, flag the point  there is no mate but me everywhere and I enjoy being with another me. I don’t need a separate relationship to be fulfilled, everything is me, The uneasiness is the mind craving for relationships in separation and What I need is best for all and Life.

  So when I am about to fear facing myself again, when I begin to want a feeling of a female or mate I stop and breathe and remind myself I am everywhere. There is no others but us. I am living with myself everywhere. When I feeling nervous about being alone I stop and breathe and remind myself everything is me, all I need is always doing what is best for all and Life.

For I want to feel Cozy/Content feeling, it's summarized as one word - Sex. So I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word sex with a positive value. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word sex as good/positive/right instead of realizing everything is me and if I charge polarity someone as me has to take the negative pole/side. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word sex through judging the word sex as good/positive/right. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word sex to a blonde teenager naked on bed. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within a blonde teenager naked on bed. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from sex and from a blonde teenager naked on bed through defining sex within a blonde teenager naked on bed. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the sex to two adult hugging each other and foreplaying. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within two adult hugging each other and foreplaying. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word sex and from two adult hugging each other and foreplaying through defining the word sex within two adult hugging each other and foreplaying . I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word sex to two blonde teenager naked kissing. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within two blonde teenager naked kissing. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself separate myself from the word sex and from two blonde teenager naked kissing through defining the word sex within two blonde teenager naked kissing. To Redefine the word, I look up in the dictionary for the current definition of sex. 1. Either of the two major forms of individuals that occur in many species and that are distinguished respectively as female or male especially on the basis of their reproductive organs and structures 2. The sum of the structural, functional, and behavioral characteristics of organisms that are involved in reproduction marked by the union of gametes and that distinguish males and females 3. Sexually motivated phenomena or behaviour Either of the two major forms of individuals that occur in many species and that are distinguished respectively as female or male especially on the basis of their reproductive organs and structures. The sum of the structural, functional, and behavioral characteristics of organisms that are involved in reproduction marked by the union of gametes and that distinguish males and females. And I found playing with the sound of Sex it sounds like Same in Act, Satisfy. In general the word sex would mean An act of a male and female acting/getting together generating energy/feelings or for reproduction. When I sound the word sex, I tend to have a picture of Two Caucasian blonde naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter inside my mind. And I ask myself and look at it deeply, I found it represents Satisfaction, Excitement, Ecstasy. So I now redefine the word sex would mean a male and female getting together in intimacy involving intercourse or masturbation for reproduction or pleasure. So for the thought of two Caucasian blonde naked,  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect/define sex within the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate and feel excited through picturing two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a picture/desire of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter exists within and as me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect this picture to the desire for sex or warm feelings. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter to satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy within the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy through defining satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy within a picture. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power to a picture of a blonde teenager instead of realizing that it is just an energy feeling. And for what it underneath represents as Satisfaction, Excitement, Ecstasy,   * I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to energy/feelings, excitement and ecstasy. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place and connect my self-interest satisfaction through viewing two blonde teenagers foreplaying and stimulating myself on the energy and feelings instead of content with I am/we are Oneness and Equal. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect Caucasian’s white skin and blond hair as stimulations for me to feel excited instead of realizing that everything is actually me and express ourselves here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only live ecstasy and pursuing to have sex with a blond teenager instead of really looking inside of me and see why I was stimulated for blonde pictures and it’s actually darkness that is content and what that being’s beingness has nothing to do with how she looks. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place special values into the pictures of blone teenagers instead of realizing every form is just an expression and everything is me expressing here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pursuit and depend on through animation/blonde teenagers/pornography to reach my ecstasy instead of realizing ecstasy is just energy and I am self-expressing in every moment and I am content with expressing myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect excitement to the pictures of two blonde girls foreplaying inside a house during winter. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from excitement and blonde teenagers through defining excitements within the visual images of blonde teenagers. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to animation pornography instead of self-expressing myself within Oneness and Equality as the truth of us. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my satisfaction only on what/how I can get the most feelings/energies through visual images like naked blonde teenagers instead of realizing my satisfaction should be darkness and also taking self-responsibility and living in Oneness and Equality. Now I found I connect to this two blonds' thoughts is based on energy, so for the self-forgiveness on connecting energy to this picture:  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect excitements to visual stimulations of blonds and thinking blond teenagers can give me extreme ecstasy instead of realizing that there are all how my mind think and it’s not real. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself secretly in my backchat want to have sex with blonde girls and found the naked image entertaining /interesting instead of seeing everything is me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanted to hide away in ecstasy and feelings/energies instead of taking myself self-responsibility and face myself, not hiding anymore, take the courage to self-forgive myself and don’t live in separation anymore. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard existence and physical but only pursuing the feelings of looking at a naked blonde teenager to stimulate me through the mind instead of accepting everything around me is me. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think if I have sex with a blonde teenager then I will have the greatest excitement/happiness/feelings/energy instead of realizing all thoughts/feelings and emotions are of the mind and it’s not real. It is actually I was obsessed to the feelings when I look at a blonde teenager. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and belief if I can’t have sex with a blonde teenager then my life is not culminated and satisfied instead of realizing the blonds are me and I was just enjoying sucking energy out from the physical body.

 

2.2.2.2   Self-Forgiveness

2.2.2.2.1   Self-Forgiveness on positive/negative value for word:

Write out SF on the positive / negative charge of word in centre-circle.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word sex with a positive value.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word sex as good/positive/right instead of realizing everything is me and if I charge polarity someone as me has to take the negative pole/side.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word sex through judging the word sex as good/positive/right.

2.2.2.2.2   Self-Forgiveness on each point in the word-web:

Write out SF on each word being associated with the word in the middle of the word web.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word sex to a blonde teenager naked on bed.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within a blonde teenager naked on bed.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from sex and from a blonde teenager naked on bed through defining sex within a blonde teenager naked on bed.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the sex to two adult hugging each other and foreplaying.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within two adult hugging each other and foreplaying.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word sex and from two adult hugging each other and foreplaying through defining the word sex within two adult hugging each other and foreplaying .

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word sex to two blonde teenager naked kissing.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sex within two blonde teenager naked kissing.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself separate myself from the word sex and from two blonde teenager naked kissing through defining the word sex within two blonde teenager naked kissing.

1.2.2.3   Re-Define the Word in the Centre-Circle

1.2.2.3.1   Gathering information:

1.2.2.3.1.1   Establishing self’s allocation point:

1.2.2.3.1.2   Dictionary Definition:

[Added]

1. Either of the two major forms of individuals that occur in many species and that are distinguished respectively as female or male especially on the basis of their reproductive organs and structures

2. The sum of the structural, functional, and behavioral characteristics of organisms that are involved in reproduction marked by the union of gametes and that distinguish males and females

3. Sexually motivated phenomena or behaviour

• Either of the two major forms of individuals that occur in many species and that are distinguished respectively as female or male especially on the basis of their reproductive organs and structures.

• The sum of the structural, functional, and behavioral characteristics of organisms that are involved in reproduction marked by the union of gametes and that distinguish males and females.

1.2.2.3.1.3   Sounding the word:

Same in Act, Satisfy.

1.2.2.3.2   Investigate the information of the word that has been gathered

Does the definition within the different aspects that you have gathered as information of the word, carry a polarity charge (is it made ‘good’/’positive’ or ‘bad’/’negative’)?

This can be determined by looking at:

a. Your own personal experience with this word

b. How you have interpreted the word as ‘good’/’positive’ or ‘bad’/’negative’

c. What associations do you have with the word?

d. Do you feel better or worse when you are using or experiencing this word?

1.2.2.3.3   New definition

1.2.2.3.3.1   Creative writing:

1.2.2.3.3.2   Writing the definition:

• A act of a male and female(both me) self-expressing/creating themselves for self-expressing or reproducing purpose.

Consider the following 5 points when writing out your final definition (see pp. 24-26 in the PDF)

1.            The physical living expression

2.            Principles

3.            System words based in polarities

4.            Assigning a positive charge

5.            Assigning a limited definition to a word

1.2.2.3.4   Checking the definition

1.2.2.3.4.1   Is there a polarity in the definition that I have assigned to the word?

                        Answer: No

1.2.2.3.4.2   Can I stand by this definition of the word eternally?

                        Answer: Yes.

2.2.3  The Pictures Work-Sheet

(Done for each Picture written down in the summary list (1.2.3))

Transfer the name of 1 picture identified on the summary page here

Below you can present the picture by drawing the picture or by placing words in specific positions within the box provided – or descriptively write out the picture to form the picture with words.

2.2.3.1   Drawing/writing out a picture-representation:

 

[Added]

• Two Caucasian blonde naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter.

2.2.3.2   What the picture as a whole represents:

Summarize what the picture represents within self.

• Satisfaction, Excitement, Ecstasy.

2.2.3.3  Self-Forgiveness

2.2.3.3.1   Self-Forgiveness on the picture:

Write Self-Forgiveness on the picture (1.2.3.1)

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect/define sex within the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate and feel excited through picturing two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a picture/desire of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter exists within and as me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect this picture to the desire for sex or warm feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter to satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy within the picture of two blonde teenagers naked and foreplaying with each other inside a house during winter.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy through defining satisfaction, excitement and ecstasy within a picture.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power to a picture of a blonde teenager instead of realizing that it is just an energy feeling.

2.2.3.3.2   Self-Forgiveness on what the picture represents:

Write Self-Forgiveness on what the picture represents (1.2.3.2)

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to energy/feelings, excitement and ecstasy.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place and connect my self-interest satisfaction through viewing two blonde teenagers foreplaying and stimulating myself on the energy and feelings instead of content with I am/we are Oneness and Equal.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect Caucasian’s white skin and blond hair as stimulations for me to feel excited instead of realizing that everything is actually me and express ourselves here.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only live ecstasy and pursuing to have sex with a blond teenager instead of really looking inside of me and see why I was stimulated for blonde pictures and it’s actually darkness that is content and what that being’s beingness has nothing to do with how she looks.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place special values into the pictures of blone teenagers instead of realizing every form is just an expression and everything is me expressing here.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pursuit and depend on through animation/blonde teenagers/pornography to reach my ecstasy instead of realizing ecstasy is just energy and I am self-expressing in every moment and I am content with expressing myself.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect excitement to the pictures of two blonde girls foreplaying inside a house during winter.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from excitement and blonde teenagers through defining excitements within the visual images of blonde teenagers.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to animation pornography instead of self-expressing myself within Oneness and Equality as the truth of us.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my satisfaction only on what/how I can get the most feelings/energies through visual images like naked blonde teenagers instead of realizing my satisfaction should be darkness and also taking self-responsibility and living in Oneness and Equality.

2.2.3.3.3   Self-Forgiveness on connection to the thought:

Write Self-Forgiveness on the connection to the thought in 1.1.

•  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect excitements to visual stimulations of blonds and thinking blond teenagers can give me extreme ecstasy instead of realizing that there are all how my mind think and it’s not real.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself secretly in my backchat want to have sex with blonde girls and found the naked image entertaining /interesting instead of seeing everything is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanted to hide away in ecstasy and feelings/energies instead of taking myself self-responsibility and face myself, not hiding anymore, take the courage to self-forgive myself and don’t live in separation anymore.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard existence and physical but only pursuing the feelings of looking at a naked blonde teenager to stimulate me through the mind instead of accepting everything around me is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think if I have sex with a blonde teenager then I will have the greatest excitement/happiness/feelings/energy instead of realizing all thoughts/feelings and emotions are of the mind and it’s not real. It is actually I was obsessed to the feelings when I look at a blonde teenager.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and belief if I can’t have sex with a blonde teenager then my life is not culminated and satisfied instead of realizing the blonds are me and I was just enjoying sucking energy out from the physical body.

So above is a portion of my Thought Construct where we are taught skilfuly using the techniques to help us locate the core of our thoughts and why we are hanging on to these thoughts/ideas. This is very critical as I have tried self-forgiveness on my own and I just can't get rid of the thoughts. They just come back. After I joint DIP I am more effective in clearing my thoughts/nature as they don't come back after a few weeks. I know I have gone deep enough and have forgiven the core points. And it took me way longer, that is if I am "lucky" in able to find the source of why I am hanging on these thoughts, it would be way way much longer and less effective when I was doing self-forgiveness on my own.

DIP Handsome - Secretly looking at mirror in toilet

Ever since I was a boy I watched the actor on the movies and TV and was mesmerized by their appearance. I looked at the mirror and try to make the posture and make me look like them. Look appealing to girls. Instead of accepting myself and express myself here.

I secretly think I might not have the brightest outlook but have a very good mind and personality. Totally hypnotized and not seeing what I actually was.

I would also dress according to how the actors dress like and make myself more acceptable amongst girls. I would have long hair to make it looks similar to the popular Japanese actor. And I just alternate how I dress/look for pleasing girls.

I deliberate do things that are abnormal to catch girls’ attention. I want all the girls worship me or want me so I can have a beautiful cutie girl friend. Never considered that it was all about energy/feelings and everything in existence is actually me.

I didn’t have any relationship so I was pretty much only caring about how I look, how I can be more handsome and look like an actor.

If I can have girls/females appreciate my look/dress then I’d be happy because someone admire me.

So I can see I Want to be as admired, recognized and intimating as actors in movies, Want to be attractive amongst girls, Use how I dress and looks to appeal girls, Deliberate do abnormal stuffs to catch girls’ attention. I Want girls to worship/admire me so I can choose a beautiful/cutie girl friend. I only care about how I look, how I can be more handsome. I’d be happy if some girls admire me. I Desire for sex, warm feelings. It is an Envy to the handsome actors and I really need to get these out things self-forgiven else they are just haunting me inside because that was what I did/accepted or allowed. I have to admit that.  

I will concentrate working on Want to be as admired, recognized and mimic actors in movies and Envy. I also feel Pride and Admiration about if I can mimic the actors. To summarize in one word, it is – Handsome. I remember when I was a teenager, I’d look at the toilet mirror, I change how my face look to mimic how the actors in the movie look like. When I would arouse and have do that? After I see male that are more handsome than me in movies then I’d go to the toilet and look at myself. And there is also Envy involved.

So for the thought I want to be admired, recognized I self-forgive myself as below:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself want to be the most handsome man on earth.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compete with other males to want to look more attractive than others instead of placing value in Equality as everyone is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to want to become an actor and have all the fames and fortunes and admiration instead of considering what is best for all.

And for when I see handsome actors acting in movies, I forgive myself for:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fantasize when I see a handsome actor acting on screen instead of seeing him as equal to me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be special and having superior value in girls mind instead of treating everyone as me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself thinking if I cannot become an handsome actor then let me shape myself become similar to them, getting my distance closer to them instead of seeing there should be Equality everywhere as everyone is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value in handsome actor’s faces and want to mimic as them instead of self-expressing myself in every moment.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project me into the actors on the movies instead of staying in my breath and here.

So for  I self-forgive myself on want to be admired:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be swallowed by admiration and how I look in other people’s eyes instead of expressing me within Equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away and being directed in hoping I can look more like an actor in the movies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself want to use my face to attract teenage girls instead of realizing it is just  energy/feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use dressing as a mean to get girls like me instead of self-expressing myself in the moment.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberate to make abnormal acts to try to draw girls’ attentions and being slyly instead of self-honest to myself and treat them as me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly want girls to worship me as I have pride in my mind so that I can have a beautiful and cutie girl friend instead of seeing everyone is me having their own expression.
• I forgive myself haven’t accepting and allowing myself to accept myself and placing value into my facial expression.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself placing value into my facial expression because it can stimulate girls and make them want to go to bed with me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be handsome and want all males that are more handsome than me died instead of placing value in myself and clearing myself fit into oneness and equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value and being directed by how I look instead of seeing everything is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous to all males that have many beautiful girl friends instead of living self-honesty.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to jealousy.

My self-forgiveness on my Envy:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to envy of the handsome actors having an attractive face for girls and why I couldn’t have one like them instead of  realizing everything is me and I should do what is best for all instead of placing value in my look.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite people that are handsome that if I cannot be handsome then let me curse them to die so that I can upgrade and become more attractive instead of expressing myself in Oneness and Equality and enjoy together equally.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lost in separation and envy to the handsome actors instead of realizing they are me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think nobody can hear my envy and I can choose envy, spite and backchats to the handsome actors instead of being self-honest and treating everything as me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be the handsome actors instead of staying in breathe, here expressing myself in every moment within Best for all.

So for my desire Wanting to be as admired, recognized and mimic actors in movies, I realize I am one and equal to everything and facial expression is just part of our expressions,

I am not subjected and controlled by how I/we look and I should place value into Oneness and Equality, and self-expression.

When I react with the handsome pictures shown on screen again, I stop and breathe and remind myself Placing value in Oneness and Equality. Facial and hair expression are just how the mind feel and calculate for possibility of conception. It is not really what I feel and everyone is me, I should treat everyone as Equal as me.

• And for when I see handsome actors performing in movies, I realize I am not the Actor and shouldn’t admire to being them, Everyone is just expressing themselves, I am self-accepting myself and placing value on myself.

So When I see the actors on the movie, I stop and breathe and do not participate in the mind. Reminding me that I am self-accepting myself and do not place/define my value separate outside of me on my facial expression or on the actor’s physical expression.

• For  my desire want to be admired, I realize I am no special than anyone else, everything is me. I flag the point of being admired is just ego looking for conceptions and I am no better or worse than anything else but equal to them all.

• For my secret  [Envy] I realize Everything is me and I shouldn’t envy anything/anyone as myself, When I spite people I was creating my future of being spite and ignore that I am actually everything in existence, We enjoy together here Equally, Everything is known in existence there is no place that I can hide my backchats.

So When I want to be handsome I stop and breath and remind myself the facial expressing is just couple of cells it’s the feeling through the mind generated that gives me the impression and that is not real and will not last. And When I want to envy anyone or anything I stop and breathe and remind myself for best for all and everything is me.

So When I feel Pride and Admiration if I am handsome. And secretly behind these feelings I am actually Afraid of being rejected by a girl and Fear of not being good enough.

Why I would fear of being rejected and not good enough, I ask myself and the answer is Addicted to energy and feelings, Lack of self-confidence, I am not a perfect attractive male amongst girls, Do not want all my time and effort spend on this girl become nothing and wasted.

So for me feeling pride and admiration, I myself:

Pride:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to my ego’s pride and refuse to change myself.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself looking for being handsome and being pride.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think as long as I have an handsome outlook then I can be proud of instead of living equality in all ways.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think if do not have an attractive outlook then I am not proud and lacking confidence in me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself placing self-value in my outlook.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be proud of I don’t look like a typical Chinese instead of realizing the feeling of my face is energy generated in my mind.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use smiling to get special treatments from female because of my outlook.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to see that this pride is only my ego want to be special.

Admiration:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be admired and taking advantage of can have lots of beautiful teenage girls and subsequently/secretly want to have sex with them.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize admiration means specialness, means different than others in separation instead of equality.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to ever consider that we are actually equal in all ways.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away totally pursuit of admiration and beauty/handsome when I was standing in front of the mirror.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge that I am not handsome enough than other males instead of realizing it is just an expression to indentify each other.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value in admiration more than I value myself.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly want to be admired by all the girls in the world instead of living and considering everything is equal.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself admiring teenagers’ body is actually wanting to have sex with them instead of clearing my dependence of energy.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to realize that sex and masturbation is energy and is not living at all instead of staying in breathe and living here as life in equality.

And for desire for energy, I forgive myself on:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanting to experience energy forever instead of realizing energy is polarity and won’t last long.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to realize that energy is not living and is only sucking from physical.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself because masturbation feels much excited than just looking at girls and then I just secretly thinking nobody can see what I am thinking in mind and I can generate all the thoughts of having sex with them.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limited my self-expression as energy in masturbation only and think I was living.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to addicted to masturbation and energy instead of living in equality and best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to masturbation and energy and making a statement that I couldn’t live without them instead of staying in breathe and here.

For secretly Afraid of being rejected by a girl. Fear of not being good enough:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always afraid of being rejected by a girl instead of treating everything in existence as me and always for best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself belief that because of all my past experience with girls that I always got rejected that I actually stand no chance in having an agreement with the girl that I find interesting instead of going into agreement with best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put my energy feelings and self-interest in front of agreement for best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to belief fearing of being rejected is protecting me from being rejected instead of going with agreements for best for all including me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to competing with other males to race for winning a girl instead of realizing that everyone/everything is actually me and act for best for all.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to realize best for all is also best for me as everything/everyone is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I am not good enough for competing to have a girlfriend instead of realizing everyone is me and it doesn’t matter who I am going to be with an agreement.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect fear to the believe that I am not good enough for competing to have a girlfriend.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear how other girls know how evil I am inside that I tried to conceive instead of cleaning myself and become a better being fit within oneness and equality.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly inside my backchats valuing myself as the most attractive person instead of treating everyone equally and do what is best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am loser once I got rejected instead of realizing that everyone is me and it is me rejecting me.

For why I would connect afraid of being rejected to admiration and Pride:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to as long as it feels good then I don’t care about anything in existence instead of realizing that everything actually is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a statement of I only care about my self-interest of energy and not caring about anything else.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my ego and not doing/considering what is best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to listen and give my power away to my mind and ego instead of using common sense and living in breathe in equality as Life.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself whenever I desire for energy then I connect to want to be handsome and able to have lots of teenage girl friends.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from desire for energy and sex and from desire to be handsome through defining desire for energy and sex within desire to be handsome.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to treat relationship as a lottery and if I am rejected I lost all my time and effort and I feel sad instead of always acting in best for all for Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for  Lacking self-confidence, I am not a perfect attractive male amongst girls:

• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to realize that there is not perfect male/comparison or beautiful or ugly as those are just energy feelings and everything is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanting to have sex with a beautiful girl so I always try to mimic or want to be a perfect attractive male.
• I forgive myself for accepting myself to believe I am hurt and shamed when I was rejected by girls instead of realizing always doing what is best for all and everything in existence is me will always be right.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself project into the future wanting to have sex with the girls I proposed into an desire for energy instead of considering everyone equally and do what is best for all instead of placing value into desires, energies and outlooks.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that everything is me and I have excluded everything in existence but only my self-interest and energy/feelings/girls instead of always doing best for all.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect I am not a perfect attractive male amongst girls to the belief of fear of not being good enough.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to want to be as attractive and shine like a start instead of realizing I am no different than anything or anyone else in existence.

So through these self-forgiveness statements, I realize I am taking my power back and do not give my power away to my ego, Handsome only exists within competition/comparison and within the mind, How I treat others or how I slyly manipulate others are actually I submit myself to be manipulated and tricked by others in future, I am not special as everything is actually me and there is no pride in comparing to others, There is no secret so to be self-honest I treat everything as me, I do not place value in handsome because it is only a feeling/energy generated by the mind and we currently place value into it and

I place self-value in me.

Also,  Life is not only about getting a girl and then have feelings/energy have sex with the one I want, Life is about expressing and giving equality to everyone around me, Best for all will always be the best and right, It is not about who can have which girl but everything is actually me, From now on, I am changing myself to do what is best for all.

I remind myself, When I feel the feeling of want to have pride and admiration through make myself look handsome, I stop and breath and remind myself that I am no any different than anyone else. And handsome is just an energy feeling that going inside my mind.

When I begin to fear of being rejected by girls I stop and breath, and remind myself I am always acting for what is best for all, not for relationship, energy or feelings.

For my underlying reason of desire for energy and Envy, I realize Energy is not real and is an abuse of physical as me, Addicted to energy is a statement of literally saying I don’t about existence or anything but only my self-interest of feelings as energies – denying I am everything in existence and To live Equality means living best for all, for me as life.

So when I face similar situation again, When I want to experience energy and saying I can’t stand without energy, I stop and breath and remind myself that  when I was small and innocent that’s the joy of expression of life is the real enjoyment. Energy is a polarity that someone has to suffer and not real joy.

I am part of Life and should consider everything and act for best for all not self-interest.

For I am not good enough and desire for energy, I realize Energy living is not real and not Oneness and Equality way of living, I can take my power back and release the addiction to energy and masturbation, I am real as Life as best for all and do not define myself as energy, I am just normal as everyone/everything else, I don’t live in comparison, or envy of anyone/anything but just play my role always do what is best for all and I do not exist as or for energies but are expressing myself as part of Life.

So When I face the similar situation again, When I want to consume energy as masturbation, I stop and breathe and remind myself, energy and masturbation is not actually living, living in equality in considering every life is the joy without worry of karma and actually taking my self-responsibility and “free as a god”.

When I begin to feel sad when I am rejected and imply I am not a perfect attractive male amongst girls, I stop and breathe, and remind myself I am just as normal as everything/everyone here. I do not live in envy or comparison but always living what is best for all.

So for self-forgive on the points for handsome:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word handsome with a positive value.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word handsome as good/right/positive instead of treating everything in existence as me Equally without any polarities.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word handsome to energy feelings.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word handsome and from the feelings through connecting handsome to energy feelings.

By breaking down the major parts that I am connecting to the word Handsome:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect handsome to the scene of Robert Redford wearing a suit.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define handsome within the scene of Robert reford wearing a suit.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from handsome and from the scene of Robert Reford wearing a suit through defining handsome within the scene of Robert reford wearing a suit.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect handsome to the scene of Tom Cruise in the movie topgun.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define handsome within the scene of Tom Cruise in the movie topgun.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from handsome and from the scene of Tom Cruise in the movie topgun through defining handsome within the scene of Tom Cruise in the movie topgun.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanted to be as good looking as Tom Cruise so I can have many teenage Caucasian girl friends to worship me and can have sex with them instead of realizing that sex is only energy and everything is equally as me.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect handsome to the picture of a prince with a white horse in Snow White.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define handsome within the picture of a prince with a white horse in Snow white.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from handsome and from the picture of a prince with a white horse in snow white through defining handsome within a picture of a prince with a white horse in snow white.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge Denny devito is urgly/not attractive instead of realizing that denny devito is me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel superior than Denny devito/dwarfs instead of realizing they are Equal as me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior than Tom Cruise instead of realizing the facial expression value is how people desire for sex and not the true identity of what we are.

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect handsome to Justine Bieber singing in MTV.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define handsome within Justin Bieber singing in MTV.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from handsome and from Justin Bieber singing in MTV through defining handsome within Justin Bieber singing in MTV.

 

To Redefine the word Handsome, first I look up the definition in the dictionary:

1.  Pleasing and dignified in form or appearance.

2.  Generous or copious: a handsome reward.

3.  Marked by or requiring skill dexterity: did some handsome maneuvers on the skating rink.

4.  Appropriate or fitting: a handsome location for the new school.

5.  Large: a handsome price; won by a handsome margin.

Play with the sound of the word handsome, sounds like I have some, in some.

So I write about this word handsome. I remember Sunette once in a video said the plants at the farm are growing healthy and she said they are beautiful. I also want to use that definition to define my new meaning of handsome where it is not define by how much I want to have sex with a girl or how others want to have sex with me but just a word describing how everyone is expressing and enjoying themselves as Life.

I redefine it without polarity as: It describes the physical appearance(usually male) or object and it is appealing to the viewers.

When I speak the word Handsome aloud and I would float out a memory of when I was a teenager, When I looked at the toilet mirror, I change how my face look to mimic how the actors in the movie look like. I would compare my nose to how similar it is to the actors and placing my pride or value totally into my nose.  Trying to make my nose look more like a Caucasian instead of seeing that everyone is equal . I want to be worship by girls so I can feel security for I will not be lonely and can have sex with girls that I like.

And I summarize the main points from this memory are:

• I was a teenager looking at the mirror in the toilet(Take place).
• I try to shape my nose/face to mimic the actors(Action).
• I place my pride or value totally into my nose(Feelings/Emotions).
• I wanted to be worship by girls so that I won’t feel lonely and can have the sex I want(Experience).

Now I look inside me of why I am still hanging on to this memory, it’s because I feel embarrassed for remembering the look and overrating, judging myself, feeling inferior to compare myself to the actors.

So I self-forgive on the points that construct the memory:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect when I was a teenager looking at the mirror in the toilet, I try to shape my nose/face to mimic the actors and place my pride or value totally into my nose, with wanted to be worshiped by girls so that I won’t feel lonely and can have the sex I want to handsome.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold on to the memory of when I was a teenager looking at the mirror in the toilet, I try to shape my nose/face to mimic the actors and place my pride or value totally into my nose, with wanted to be worshiped by girls so that I won’t feel lonely and can have the sex I want.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define handsome within the memory of when I was a teenager looking at the mirror in the toilet, try to shape my nose/face to mimic the actors, and placing my price or value totally into my noise, with wanted to be worshiped by girls so that I won’t feel lonely and can have the sex I want.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of lonely instead of facing myself and introspect myself cleaning me through self-forgiveness.

And I forgive myself for why I am still holding on the memory:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel embarrassed for looking at the mirror and remembering how I tried to make me mimic the actors.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to embarrassed when I was looking at the mirror and totally pursing and dream of being attractive amongst girls.
• I forgive myself haven’t allowed myself to totally forgive and forget I was pursuing to be handsome when I look into the mirror and judge myself for being inferior to the actors instead of stopping the past and move on into oneness and equality from now on.
• I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize there is nothing to be embarrassed for looking into the mirror and try to be handsome/beautiful as we all did instead of stop doing it again and treat everything in existence as equal as me.

I also forgive myself for connecting to the memory:

• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect looking at the mirror in the toilet and shaping my nose/face to mimic actors, and place my pride or value totally on my outlook/nose, wanting to be worshiped by girls so that I won’t feel lonely and can have the sex I want to wanting to look like actors in movies.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my nose/outlook to how others value me.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself wanting to make everyone admire me for my outlook instead of expressing myself and changing myself through self-forgiveness to a better being.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel embarrassed to share with others that I used to secretly looking inside the toilet’s mirror and try to mimic what actors on the screen look like.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fearing that I am not handsome enough to take advantage and survive in the capitalism.
• I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect fear to I am not handsome enough to take advantage and survive in the capitalism.

So by looking at the memory I realize, We are alone and lonely is just a emotion in the mind, Every girl is me and when sex is just an energy feeling then it only proliferate the mind.

 So when the memory of me looking at the toilet mirror raise again, When I want to look beautiful/handsome through the mirror, I stop and breath and remind myself that I am everything, everything is me. I place value on my beingness not on my outlook, my outlook is a just a bunch of molecules and people putting value on it.

For  why I am still hanging on this memory, I realize I change myself and I shouldn’t feel embarrassed, Everything is me and self-forgiveness is total forgive, forget and move on.

And When I feel embarrassed about thinking or mentioned that I used to look at the toilet’s mirror and try to mimic actors in movies, I stop and breathe and remind myself I am changing me within oneness and equality for me. Let the past go and totally forgive and forget.

So it is I was walking in the dark at night but with a GPS, so I know: so this is where I should self-forgive on, this is where I am hanging my experience/obsessions on. And as I move along the list, I would know where I should concentrate more on what point and do self-forgiveness on. It is like a blue-print and I am designing a memo/plan to remind myself when similar situations occur again, how I will handle it and imprint that into myself. So through the corrective application, I change myself Successfully. Without the help from the buddy, without the DIP material, without DIP's structural assistance in detecting what is inside me that I need to find the core of my evils/problems/obsessions, acknowledge I made a mistake and here I am self-honestly cleaning myself and till here no further I live in separation with everyone/everything again. Because I already have enough of it.

At first it was very difficult and took me several days to finish one Mind Construct. However, through diligence, through self-commitment, the more I do it with the help of Andrea as my buddy, I see I am improving. Instead of keep frowning on my forehead and saying it is too difficult. I see improvements on myself! How enjoying would that be when it happens on you!?

電影愚昧年代! 常識 - 如果一天還有貪婪那淨水也會被操縱用來賺錢!? (2)

愚昧年代畢竟是得到精英/大企業/政治支持而拍攝的一部電影. 所以有吸引人的動畫, 音樂. 每一個畫面都是精心計算的. 是用來參考怎樣推銷和吸引一般人一直看一些沉悶的題材的電影. 是我可以用來借鏡的電影.

但電影本身沒有(或他們根本看不出), 所有一切的每幾年就丟棄的產品. 以我們現時的科技是完全可以避免的. 資本主義靠丟棄與增加消費/購買次數來個人以致大企業賺錢/利潤, 就是問題的徹底淤結所在.

要知道, 全球暖化, 地震, 超級颱風是地球對 "人類"這種漠視身邊一切, 濫虐一切, 自私自利, 摧毁身邊一切化為個人舒適的享受而不惜犧性自已的兒女/後代的生物的對應保衛策略. 不只是炭排放的問題. 以我們今天的石油存量, 如果我們 "真的"愛我們的兒女和後代, 我們不正應該為他們而大大節省耗石化燃料和用電?? 而 Desteni已經給了我們最桌越的解決方法! 肅清一切個人貪婪, 不再需要貪婪, 所有人都得到平等的照顧, 所有人都平等的負起作為所有生命一部份的自我-責. 生產可以用上一百年以上的電腦, 汽車, 手機, 雪柜, ipod. 因為產品的耐用程度遠遠優勝現時的幾十至幾百倍!! 地球上上至 95%的工廠都可以關閉, 所有的賭塲都關閉(因為沒有人再需要為生活條件和財富/憂慮而不斷貪錢), 所以黑幫都會關門, 所有武器/槍械都會禁止生產和擁有. 所有的決定/法律只會支援和確保所有生命都得到平等的照顧. 所有剩下來的人, 不再會為個人舒適生活而 "戰鬥", 每個人/小孩都會被教育和監察確保為全体生命最大得益而活.

事實解決方法就是很簡單: 我們每個人都定期寫博文, 錄視訊, 不停令肯聽的人加入 Desteni. 放棄不再支援 "什麼也不做的人得到所有一切(如抄股票, 抄房地產), 什麼也被迫要做的人郤一無所有, 要為孩子去偷去犯法. 為求生存而犯法." 領悟現實資本主義是在收租, 在賺大企業利潤的人每天在犯傷害平等生命的法. 為求存的罪犯是受害者. 法律從來都對活在死亡邊緣的人都是 "盲"的. 法律只是在保障 "現在擁有財富的人". 你𧻗有錢你就越得到貴賓級的保障. 我們不正被洗腦到成為一群盲目接受 "收租(合法搶略), 抄股票(合法大型地下賭塲)是合法, 而為小孩子的奶粉錢是你個人的問題.

每個人都要為精英/政府/大企業賣命/賣血! 否則你就是 "懶隋", 你捱餓就是活該! 每個人都只拼命想: 我怎樣可以 "晉身收租"的行列, 收租的拼命想我怎樣可以抄房地產, 精英們拼命在想我自已可以怎樣透過世界大戰削減最大量的人口,  自已可以活到最後一刻, 希望未來地球會再生產出石油, 然後一切統治又重新開始. 我為了我的下一代我才不會願意有下一代, 讓他們活在這樣的資本貪婪白熱化奴隸的世界. 我要他們活在 "平等富裕金錢"世界裏, 每天都活在大家一同負起作為生命的自我責任, 從此以後每一天與他們的家人和兄弟姐妹, 活在愉快的生命派對生活中生活!

電影愚昧年代! 問題不是在全球暖化, 是貪婪! (1)

愚昧年代! 終於看完了這套電影. 是很好萊塢式的電影. 用來作為對炭稅和分散全球人的集中的在全球暖化的 "問題"上. 而忽略/漠視身邊每天因為貪婪和不平等, 一少撮人的個人小天堂, 而令 全球 95%的人每天活在活地獄的世界裏.

但這電視也是有可取的地方.它展示了, 當我們為了個人利益的時候, 人類是會為了自已舒適的生活, 和豐厚的財富而犧牲自已法律上容許列入 "個人應得"的利益. 當來到了應該怎樣犧牲個人自已的利益, 或財富時. 一切都變得 "吋土不讓". 而我即使在網上接觸到的人, 更會用: 是啊, 這就是人性啊! 我在蓋嘆啊! 然後什麼也不做. 我是覺得很不接受這些人的. 因為, 在我來說, 是, 現時大部份人對世界現實每天的慘劇的反應, 都是漠不關心而只留心那些在售賣金錢和性的誘惑影片上.

按這裏看更多關於活在平等富裕金錢下, 你我與他她們活在未來世界的生活會是怎樣. 多謝支持.

 但我絶對不會用: 這就是人性或人心來對我每天在推動的平等富裕金錢劃上句號. 我會盡我的能力去燃燒我的一份力. 雖然現時我的影響力是有限的, 但我曾對自已說, 只要我能影響十個能真真正正真心參與推動 Desteni的人, 那我的功夫也不算白費. 讓我死後如果我還記得/存在, 起碼我對得起存在, 我對正在每天被𧩜殺, 奴隸強姦剝削的小孩和其他人, 我在堅持在推動. 我在改變自已和改變這個世界.