Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Dreaming insist every shanghai people are evil cunning and selfish inside

In the dream, for some reason we have two shanghai people, a mother and a son, the details I don't really remember what it's about but it's the after dinner and somehow the son is presenting himself as a nice person, but I know that based on how I contact with shanghai people's mind sets and what they act like I told myself that I know he is just pretending and he and all shanghai people's mind sets are cunning as a snake inside of him, selfish.

MC -> Assertion 堅持 (3 points)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to based on how I heard and experienced from the shanghai people as cunning and selfish and treat all shanghai people's mind sets are selfish.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear shanghai people's mind set as cunning and selfish and could harm me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge all shanghai people's mind sets as evil only based on I haven't met any shanghai person that support oneness and equality.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to accept the shanghai people as me as one and equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the shanghai people as being cunning selfish and vicious not realizing it's me us that is cunning selfish and vicious that they are reflecting what we are inside.

Within seeing the pattern that I want to assert a shanghai person is evil vicious I stop and breathe and test and see if that shanghai person support oneness and equality.


When I just wake up those periods are kind of like in the subconscious stage that I was between sleeping and awake, for two mornings I have thoughts of cutting my hands off with a japanese sword, it's horrible because thoughts are reflection of what my true essence is.

MC -> lenience 厚道 (10 points)
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat kind and lenience in this world is useless is garbage not realizing that we are oneness and equal.
I forgive myself that I have accepted to treat kind is we useless and why should I be kind to anything and lenience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be lenience for I have been forgotten we are oneness and equal for so long.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and resist in finding out the words so that I can hide in my self-dishonesties for as long as I can.
I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to be self-honest to myself and honestly look for the words that could assist me and write my self-forgiveness and clear my essence once and for all and self-correct afterwards.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist in finding out what I truly is and write self-forgiveness out accordingly.

Within seeing the pattern of I want to resist I breathe and stop and do self-forgiveness to clear the resistance.

I just found out the dreams are assisting us to face what we are not facing in real world, not necessary telling us what we should Self forgive on. Also I have asked Andrea about why I am not getting relative words when using MC, she shows me the dreams are here for us to stand up within the situation in the dream.

I have been preparing for the real estate exam, I should be making the vlog before I go back to HongKong, I don't really like going back 'cause there is no internet or anything there, just staying there for a month or so, but last year my mom don't allow me to drive the car and just being vegetarian makes my living really troublesome, needs to cook by myself and it's like trapping inside a prison cell, I don't have friends here to go out or have gatherings, living by myself only is really difficult for me, I enjoy chat with friends.

There is still difficulties in pushing me to make the vlog, I am calculating on what to speak what I would like to communicate to the world out there, to the destonian. in my mind I have been go through, simulating how to make notes and what to talk about, probably would first talk about my view to desteni and my feelings to desteni, and second topic is why equal money why equality. I know sometimes I will just need to go for it because it's almost always wouldn't turn out as what I planned through the mind, what through the mind is very limited. the most important is when I really do it, put myself into actually working on it then the plans will need to modify|change accordingly. I still remember I use weeks to plan how I am going to buy a chinese writing pen to assist me do the translation and it turns out because I need to exert the force down along the outer side of my hand against the floor it hurts me so bad that after using it for ten days, I have to give up the pen and learn chinese typings. today I can type moderately not very good but good enough to translate three hundred youtube videos, afterall, I have been typing chinese for a year now.

2 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing Fred! Regarding having no friends - why do you simply not make some new friends? Go out and engage into conversation. If we are all one and equal, it should not be hard to connect. If any resistance, just self-forgive.

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  2. I am pretty much sticking with my mom and not very actively participating in making friends. Because making friends need to spend money and I don't have any income, of course I have no problem with making friends I like to make especially destonian friends.

    It is going to change since I am working on become a realtor that I definitelly need to know more people around me so that I can make some deals through them. I currently still don't have any clues yet I know nothing about the real estate business.

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