Persimistic about it could be difficult to generate sales in selling software

10:15pm.

I felt door knocking is such an exhausting job. Based on how I door knock last time it was extreme exhausting. I project I am not going to get any appointments or results by knocking on people's door. I think I am not read yet, I would rather being comfortable inside my house and train myself to an acceptable level first so I can have higher chance of closing a sales. As Bernard said door knocking needs to be extremely well structured to get anywhere. At this stage door knocking is highly likely to waste my breathe and effort.




Just by writing it out, I already feel a release like putting a burden off my solar plexus, isn't it amazing? Now the self-forgiveness part. I know, I was just like some of you -- I skipped the self-forgivenss part, it is not interesting but when I research Desteni more deeper later on, I found self-forgiveness is something that I did not want to do(because I am not skillful yet, I Process definitely will help) but definitely help me bit by bit cleaning myself and obviously cleaning my thoughts so thoughts don't automatically jumps out anymore. Isn't that horrible whenever I saw a plane I would have thoughts want it explode or when I saw a little dog I would have thoughts of stepping on it's head, or saw a iron stick inserted in the ground and wanted to experience my eyes pieced through it. Through my research I find out I cannot just force/suppress myself to dissipate them, then the most effective way is self-forgive down to as detail as possible then don't do it again. Isn't it logical that these thoughts must be originate from us somewhere? They are from what we accepted and allowed in the past. Like I played a lot of shooting videos games(about killings and I felt excited when I shoot someone) and Japanese animations(bloody porn-atic stimulants) and I believe these are my cause of those thoughts. I have to do something about them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from my mind and react through my mind instead of self- directing myself and expressing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge door knocking is difficult and I will always have the same results and not willing to spend my effort in door knocking to learn and change my course.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge that I will get extremely low appointments rates based on how I did last time on door knocking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge through my mind and place my value in my judgments/my mind.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to learn in the actual field and actually learn and adjust my approach.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to change myself to fit into my environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to change me since changing me means I was not right I was wrong I wasn't superior.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize I was never right for I was only self-interested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind in projecting how the door knocking outcome is so uncertain.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to find ways to make door knocking fun and something to enjoy.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize door knocking is the way of training me how to handle people's mind lower their resistance and convince them for an appointment.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to spend time and effort for door knocking as a learning process.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to spend time and effort in fine tuning door knocking and learn from it.

11:35 pm.