Movie Minority Report -- Rewatch

So I have downloaded a couple of movies. Haven't really watched movies for a long time, I found some high resolution(720p) and small size (less than 1 gbs) this arouse my interest of how come such a high definition video can be this small. I downloaded a few and watched on of them. I didn't plan to watch it but I watched this minority report a long time ago and I didn't know what it was talking about, because I didn't get the what they were saying. This time I have subtitles so I watched this one.

It basically said in the future the humans have 'prophets' who can predict murders and bunch of specialty cops work on how to stop the crime before it happens. Also on bunch of actions, fighting, plot, scifi-gatchets. When I first saw it I was just concentrating on looking at the hovercrafts, the special effects and the story lines. I haven't found Desteni back then, it feels like over 10 years now. I was watching it with my brother.

When I re-watch it again, I totally seeing it from a common sense perspective. Just like what Bernard said, the more law you have the more criminals you have in the society. The prophets were not the problem, it's the 'human' behind it that has been causing the 'evil' or problems. The director in charge of the whole system using pitfalls against the public, plotting and using for his own benefits. It is so similar to how our systems currently work -- the rich and politicians are controlling the law system and using "pitfalls/built-in defects" in the system(even the presidents or not to mention the elites at the back manipulating) and we accepted and allowed this to happen. Isn't it showing us how a sheep society we have become and we don't even see it and pick it up when a movie so similar/depicting how our current society works and shows us -- human is the core of all evil and selfishness and greediness at the back manipulating and causing all sorts of atrocities. And we are just like sheeps that don't use common sense.

If the source of the problem/evil -- human themselves are not solved with a system that can effectively aiming at what is best for all, monitoring make sure everyone has each opportunity to enjoy live play educate work and equally taking self-responsibility aiming for what is best for all, no matter how advanced our technologies are -- look at we 'apparently' advanced from stick to spear, to knife to sword to stone throwers, to guns to missiles the whole world the societies have only got worse and worse. Because people are killed and enslaved and exploited more 'effectively' thanks to the 'technologies'. Look at how many laws we put into the foundation of our society and the number of criminals have never been decreased.

When you use your common sense wouldn't you see it obviously it is the 'human' behind the system, laws, technologies that have been causing all the problems/evil on this world? Aiming at/because of greediness?

I have always asked myself and find it close to ridiculous that our law system, allows advertisements or packing candies to 'lure' people to bye 'me' or come consume me but punish/illegal when you don't have money and can't fend yourself off/refrain yourself from the desires to want to eat a piece of candy -- it's called steal. Same with the flooding of pornography and rapist. It is simple statistic that the more nicely packaged pornography (not to mention the internet nowadays) the more rapist you will have. The law/your consent are creating/luring candies thieves and rapists. In common sense, this is a plain statement of: I the law allows 5% of the super rich don't need to do any work but to suck everything out of those below, if you have money you can live like heaven, if you fail become a loser -- you are an outlaw and waiting to starved to death, you won't have any support from the society. The current system allows/legalized inequality, legalized poverty, legalized war and killing and rapist to name a few.

Isn't it time to do something about it before this chaos spread out like viruses and germs. We/I guarantee you the madness of humanity/the chaos will spread in the upcoming years.

Find out how Desteni I Process can help you cure/clean yourself and make a living/earn money at the same time. Have you ever heard someone would pay you to earn a degree/diploma? Never right? I haven't. This is exactly what Desteni I Process is currently doing.

Why I do self-forgiveness and what I have changed so far

What I have Realized. This I have read from Bernard's articles quite some time ago and I tend to forget/don't want to apply or recognize is energy(for instance, sex, feelings emotions, like when how you feel when you watch an animation) and when you live as energy and define your whole life as energy then you got your wish! You become/one and equal to as energy and when you die you no more exist. What happens when your watch runs out of energy? The movement does not exist/move anymore only the watch(physical) remains, isn't it? Really as simple as that and the physical molecules "stay" on earth -- they just dissolve and return back to earth and recycle/become something else, just like purification/recycling of water and manure recycle back to food.

So it is through self-forgiveness to totally forgive and release the past of what I have done(these events are still within me and reminding me as thoughts) and I can change and not be the old me with all these events at my back affecting and re-creating my future again and again. I can also feel large amount of release and can face the person again. For instance my father I used to hate him so much for totally selfish and treat us just a tool for his own benefit, if not through self-forgiveness and clear what I had 'hate' about him what I had done, I wouldn't be able to face him again, of course he has died now but we could meet again.

For instance sex(energy, pictorial excitement) was a major part that have constructed who I am today, and thoughts had become a degree are so severe that whoever I saw no matter my brother, girls, woman sexual 'fantasies'(if you'd like to call them that way) thoughts would automatically pops out and I would go: Shit! I can't go on this way, how can I stop it? I would lose control and would actually do it in real-life and I would get into big troubles and very likely end up in jail or worse, wouldn't I? I tried very hard to stop them but with no success. Thoughts just keep compounding having more vivid and more frequent sexual, not even desires anymore. I didn't start the thoughts and they just pop out.

Same with thoughts of chopping or piercing my eyes face thoughts of torturing my body(I believe these categorized as torturing). That's when I was at the early days when I first find out Desteni and realize we exist beyond death. Then it's like I subconsciously going: Ok, so my body is just a vessel and I would have thoughts of like putting my face on the hot cooker's electric coil is exciting as sexual stimulation. Or I feel excited when I watch bloody and violence movies or animations and think that must be exciting and would have thoughts of doing that to myself.

Isn't it common sense that if I continue this way ultimately soon one day, I would be in outrage and momentarily losing my control and would actually do it and harm myself or others. This is when I realize I must have do something quick and effective to stop my thoughts. Back then still haven't realize thoughts are a reflection of what I have accepted and allowed and have become. Thoughts are just a mirror reflecting who I am.

What I have changed. I stop the thoughts of hurting my body to get excitement. Thinking piercing my body would brings me great pleasure. That when I was cooking I used to have thoughts of putting my face on the hot electric cooker's coil and just like what they do in the Terminator 2 movies -- the fat guy got thrown on the cooking plate and steams(actually it's dry ice steams) coming out of the plate. Of course I need to correct and change myself by not doing it again and not participating in those thoughts after self-forgiveness. The thoughts of having sex with anyone I saw has also disappeared to a large extent. With these non-stop and ever compounding thoughts it was an harass to me and I just can't function normally -- That was not the one that I wanted to be.

What I haven't changed yet. Still clinging on animations and female nude figures. I keep reminding myself the consequence of energy and every feeling emotions I experience if I accept and allow addicted to that, it's common sense that I would become energy myself isn't it? So the desire for energy as sex and animations. Dealing situations without emotions especially not in angriness. For instance when some of my mom's christian friends knows it's me answering the phone and they just silent and don't speak a word I would feel angry and begin suppressing the angriness instead of directing the situation and stay in breathe. So right now my major problems are fears, sexual desires, animations, energies.

DIP Course Begins

So with the Farm guys' support/sponsorship I am back on DIP(SRA) for one year. Preparing myself for a foundation for me to earn my living through DIP and also supporting Desteni. I spent about 2 hours to read the first chapter, planned to do the assignment in a few days, after I got improved in reciting my sales scripts.

When I look at the course materials again, I watched most of the videos before. Isn't it funny that when I watch them like two years ago, I totally don't have a clue of what they are referring to or what they are talking about but now, after the continuous reading and studying -- I begin to understand and know what the words means. Most people might just like me that they don't realize simple words(you know what each word means but when they combine together you don't know what it is talking about) . Like a veil has been removed and I now understand get what it means.

I can also use some of what Bernard said in the material see how I can apply in the sales business.

Scheduled to chat with my buddy Andrea -- she was my buddy when I was in SRA last year. So would work with her again. We would discuss some questions like: How I am going to market the Taiwan, Hong Kong Chinese markets.

I slept 6-8 hours these days, I tried to rest after dinners because I am working/practicing all day but when I lie on the bed I fall asleep very soon and when I wake up my mom has turned the light off already. I want to rest/recharge but also want to get improved and squeeze more time to work so that is a dilemma.

Ok, till next time

Watching Power Rangers like TV episodes

When I was a little child I felt very excited in the Saturday morning I watched the power ranger like TV episodes. I felt excited like my blood is rushing up feeling hyper in watching the good looking main characters wearing attractive cool costumes and good looking girls, when at the climax of the characters change into 'little supermans' with super power and it is in the name of protecting earth defending peace to hit and fervently exert on hitting the ugly monster. I felt excited just by watching that. Subconsciously I wanted to be just like those characters I wanted to participate as them I worship them. I enjoy running and playing in the park but my father don't have time too tired and I cannot play have excitement and have fun. I though it was just excitement and Life should be looking for excitement because it felt good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon self-love and haven't seen everything including my body is one and equal to as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanted to experience energy and thinking using a Japanese sword just like in the animations can give me the same high and excitement when I slit my belly open and it is just exciting as what I felt when I was watching the animations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself wanted to cut the tip of my tongue to get energy and excitements so that I am not bored and excited.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think the tongue is sensitive and it would give me extreme ecstastic sex like experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself project my love outside of myself and do not want to face self or self-love and obsessed developed having violence as my excitement.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize violence even to my body is not excitement but a way to fuel my ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat my body just as flesh to generate energy for me for sex masturbation and pleasures and have totally disregard it as aware and love it as self as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look obsessed my passion in energy harvesting from sex masturbation and violence not realizing someone on earth had to pay for the high energy and I didn't see someone in the opposite side has to pay for my energy highness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think bullying ugly or evils or someone gives me a negative uncomfortable feelings are a sport that I feel excited and high that I can anytime in my thoughts participating in kicking them.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize everyone here are me and just expression within oneness and equality and have fun together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have special powers and can become a superhero having/catching all attractions and wanted to be worshiped.

Within seeing I wanted to be an heroic icon I stop and breathe and remind myself everyone is me and I am just expressing here.

Within seeing I want to exert on bullying others to exert my frustration/angriness inside me, I stop and breathe and remind myself I am bullying kicking my future me that I am just creating exactly how I would be treated.

I just receive an email from Andrea that I got sponsorship from Desteni Farm to study DIP for 1 year. It is both very exciting and a bit concerned when I saw that surprising email. I was in SRA before of course I didn't do well back then and I didn't see how I could make my living or earn money through SRA. We were told this would happen but Bernard haven't given us the details. It is always like that -- you know the details when you need to know. I was resisting and thought it was not useful and I was facing my mom even would cut my internet that I decided I need to find ways to earn money. I went for the real estate and now I change it to sell Enhancing children's Reading ability software.

So I expect it would be tough for the following year, when I am close to totally devoting my time to train myself prepare for door knocking and sales presentations. At the same time, need to handle bloging or even vloging(I found most people might not have time to watch vlogs -- it is slow and takes more time than just reading blogs)

Now, I need to add DIP-1 course into the my juggling. Due to how it did in my last SRA experience, I am a bit concern how I can handle everything well. Right now I haven't even start door knocking yet and I would need rest periods after door knockings each day. Things are piling up. We will see how it goes this time. I still prefer have the points written down when I do vlogs I speak smoother. Also how do I draw people that are really interested in Desteni in supporting bringing forth heaven on earth, really understanding why they should support Desteni and DIP -- these are the people that I need to get their attention.

One good news is when everything goes as planned my mom should pay for my laptop for Sales presentation. This has been troubling me that I currently don't have any money or can't find any jobs to pay for the laptop, which I must have one to do the presentation. First I accidentally told my mom that the real estate license fee has increased 50%, it actually is they are charging some technical support fees per year not per month, I only found out later. So my mom thinks it has increased the fee from 90 to 140 per months that's quite a lot, then to save her money she's forced to agree with me to cut the real estate license fees(since it would save her 150 per month) and "forced" to bet on my software selling and hope I might be able to make a living in this path. She is still not optimistic at my software selling business at all but this is a "less expensive" path for her to take.

The warm voice helps too.

Ok, so some updates on my progress. I found I wrote too much realizations on how this world currently is and how to fix it, actually to my realization so far, it's actually quite simple: Everyone give up their superiority or want to be kings or queens or want to have super richness's priviledge and start consider everyone equally -- No matter you look sexually attracted or so called "ugly"(causing negative emotions inside you) male or female, "doctor, lawyer or businessmen" or "garbage dump/sewage workers, janitors, factory slaves" everyone is the same under the Equal Money System. Start Consider/Take Care/Work/Play/Enjoy everyone on earth together and most importantly Equally!

Recap of these two weeks

1:53am. So writing again. Have been busying doing Software sales training these days. Have been communicating with Cameron. He has been quite assisting since I currently lack the knowledge in sales and he has been doing well in the sales now.

Have also been working in tuning my voice this is a very time consuming task that I need to constant monitor and find tune it. Difficult at first and still exploring.

Mom has been disgusting about Desteni and software sales. Not pledging much support at this moment, giving me a hard time in thinking of ways to come up with money.

Also have been engaged into translating the scripts into Chinese that is essential as most people living here speaks mandarin need Tanya do a mandarin recording. Currently the software still doesn't accept Chinese characters so I can't use it to help me recite the Chinese scripts. Would take some time in reciting it.

So far the English version script has been 'implanted' quite well, I am getting it better each day. Still practicing on using the program. Practicing on saying the words when I type it, I cannot say it aloud since I am with mom but it seems just by saying the words already achieve a bettering knowing stage than just type it.

So what I have been doing is plainly training myself to be a salesperson and lots of software information knowing training. English version has been satisfying and a little bit worry about the Chinese version but it is way easier than real estate where you don't need to cater learning so much details and information and have been prepared for so long and I still haven't earn a dime yet. There are way so much information that you need to prepare ahead in real estate. Here just concentrate on reciting the scripts.

Have been tired and sleeping close to eight hours each day. I need sometime to rest and revise my direction in how to do the sales job effectively. I confess that the most effective way is actually do it and revise. Usually what I have in mind is Not what it is like in reality.

Still have some thoughts of pictures of cutting myself and think it will generate energy for me. Since have stopped masturbation for a few weeks now, I/the mind is lack of energy and want to recharge through pain thinking pain is extreme exciting just by thinking about it

Persimistic about it could be difficult to generate sales in selling software

10:15pm.

I felt door knocking is such an exhausting job. Based on how I door knock last time it was extreme exhausting. I project I am not going to get any appointments or results by knocking on people's door. I think I am not read yet, I would rather being comfortable inside my house and train myself to an acceptable level first so I can have higher chance of closing a sales. As Bernard said door knocking needs to be extremely well structured to get anywhere. At this stage door knocking is highly likely to waste my breathe and effort.




Just by writing it out, I already feel a release like putting a burden off my solar plexus, isn't it amazing? Now the self-forgiveness part. I know, I was just like some of you -- I skipped the self-forgivenss part, it is not interesting but when I research Desteni more deeper later on, I found self-forgiveness is something that I did not want to do(because I am not skillful yet, I Process definitely will help) but definitely help me bit by bit cleaning myself and obviously cleaning my thoughts so thoughts don't automatically jumps out anymore. Isn't that horrible whenever I saw a plane I would have thoughts want it explode or when I saw a little dog I would have thoughts of stepping on it's head, or saw a iron stick inserted in the ground and wanted to experience my eyes pieced through it. Through my research I find out I cannot just force/suppress myself to dissipate them, then the most effective way is self-forgive down to as detail as possible then don't do it again. Isn't it logical that these thoughts must be originate from us somewhere? They are from what we accepted and allowed in the past. Like I played a lot of shooting videos games(about killings and I felt excited when I shoot someone) and Japanese animations(bloody porn-atic stimulants) and I believe these are my cause of those thoughts. I have to do something about them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak from my mind and react through my mind instead of self- directing myself and expressing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge door knocking is difficult and I will always have the same results and not willing to spend my effort in door knocking to learn and change my course.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge that I will get extremely low appointments rates based on how I did last time on door knocking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge through my mind and place my value in my judgments/my mind.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to learn in the actual field and actually learn and adjust my approach.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to change myself to fit into my environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to change me since changing me means I was not right I was wrong I wasn't superior.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize I was never right for I was only self-interested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind in projecting how the door knocking outcome is so uncertain.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to find ways to make door knocking fun and something to enjoy.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize door knocking is the way of training me how to handle people's mind lower their resistance and convince them for an appointment.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to spend time and effort for door knocking as a learning process.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to spend time and effort in fine tuning door knocking and learn from it.

11:35 pm.

Update on the my stoppong of masturbation for 2-3 weeks now

12:38 am. Reading takes less time than watching the whole youtube clip(I usually make it 30 mins) so I will stop making vlog for awhile and see how effective blogging can be in drawing people's attention. We are serious in bringing forth Equal Money Oneness and Equality to this world -- Our best if not only solution to this Massacre abusing and enslaving each other's World.

So I got a day off -- went to sleep early yesterday night. I slept like 9 hours not totally sleeping but also contemplating reviewing how I should do with my real estate license. Sometime I found that I want to do more reading software exercises to increase my pace on getting the scripts done and quicker in doing sales in the software but I was tried and I need to rest.


So I have stopped masturbation for 2-3 weeks by now at least. The feeling is like I am getting my memory back things begin to have imprints/impressions after I read them. It is after I walked pass the addiction of masturbation that I can appreciate the here-ness the present, the memory the stable and I thought the energy or sexual desires was totally everything I lived for -- they have subsided by now. My biggest problem on masturbation is not I cannot stop it, I stopped it for 7 months but the 'itch cycle' comes and when I go: Ok, I should be ok to do it once and when I did it I "couldn't stop" and keep asking for more that's my biggest problem that I need to face and resolve this.

Like right now I am pretty calm enjoying that I am totally stable and do not specifically have the desire to masturbate. Just present -- here with my body. Besides masturbation is a form of energy pass through my body that I apparently enjoyed but harming those that receive it including my body. Right now, according to my last couple of masturbations, whenever I masturbate my finders would react with/have I believe those are virus. Which also as I said, it's absolutely true that when I masturbated a lot in the past, my memories were extremely bad. I can confirm it with you here. Masturbation do not rejuvenate me/you, it only rejuvenates the mind. I would suggest not hide behind sleeping but rest awhile if you really need to re-charge instead of masturbating.

I am thinking how I am going to handle all these works here? I promised to do a lot of things including Desteni and re-study the SRA materials. I went into the mind projecting it would be difficult including writing the blog right now. I wanted a quick way out, wanted to sleep and recharge, I wanted to rest. I need a break. I feel painful for handle so many tasks, how am I going to handle 2 days of open houses(to learn how to work with resisting clients). I want to rest and don't have to face all these challenges most importantly is the pressure from my mom, nagging I am spending a lot of her money and not earning anything, I need to train myself and worry I won't get satisfying results in two months, I have already train myself on the scripts just reciting them took me around 25 days already.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry that I might not have satisfying improvements on my sales training to sell the software.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project how fast I would pick up learning to sell software based on how I did in the past 25 days instead of learning and adjusting myself all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I don't want to write my blog or do research for Desteni as I need to find ways to earn money as soon as possible.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize it is doing for what is best for all that I will find myself effective and feel honest and won't regret in my future on how I spent my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think oh I failed in the SRA before, I didn't understand the material and it would be still the same not realizing I have changed, I got my memory partialy back and I already showing improvements in reading and understanding the materials.


I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to dedicate my life and time on just doing it and not project any fears or predicting the outcomes based on my past.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize the past is just a reference from the past and life is ever changing and the mind seldomly right in predicting the future.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to learn from how I translate and learn how to type the chines characters that no matter how detailed I planned it is I actually do it that matters and I adjust it accordingly to achieve the best results and progress.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my fears of projecting it will be difficult but instead of doing it bit by bit and revise it according.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself enjoying I complaining and whining about how I experience the discomfortabilites and not willing to go out of my comfort zone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself just want to hide in my old comfort zone style of living and do not want to experience pain and instead of doing it bit by bit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mom's angriness and nagging on me for spending a lot of her money instead of directing the situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain it's so painful in doing all sort of estimation and I don't want to get it wrong in deciding what I should do with my real estate license.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain and whining about I cannot stand it I want my old comfort zone back not realizing it is only making my situation worse for the words create who I am instead of directing myself bit by bit.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize door knocking might be just a temporary run to start my selling and I project myself into it is so difficult and hard work and do not want to learn from it practice it do it effectively.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize pressure is my self-created because I don't want to make mistakes and fall but when fear of falling I have fallen already.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize I can only do my best to direct myself and it is not about not to fall but if/when I fall I forgive myself and climb and stand up again and correct myself.

As usual, a big release and now the time for self-corrective statements to change my essence.

Within seeing I want to whine again I stop and breathe reminding myself it won't solve my pain it only make my situation worse and I make myself angry I direct myself and learn and adjust in every moment.

Within seeing me want to stay in my comfort zone and trusting the mind's projection of how difficult it is, I stop and breathe and remind myself it is actually doing it that matters and truly works.

I direct myself I do things bit by bit and adjust and learn accordingly.

1:46 am.